Brrrrrr. By this time every night the cold just creeps into every room of the house. I make a habit of turning the heat down around 8 pm because we love a chilly sleeping temp! My computer is located on the second floor in our den and it gets a little icy up here sometimes. I am usually prepared with finger-less gloves but what I really need is a nose warmer and my Uggs. (Note to self: bring Uggs upstairs and grab a scarf to tie around my face).
So maybe you have noticed some little doodles and illustrations I have been posting and adding to my blog over the past few weeks... and well, maybe you haven't. Haha. I am slowly incorporating my passion for art/graphic design into Sheribloggins. I always hoped this blog would evolve somehow but never really knew in which way. To be honest I thought I would have deleted it long ago, but the truth is that it has become a very big part of my life. A positive part. An enjoyable part. I look forward to writing and posting and get frustrated when the ideas aren't flowing. A lot of times when I have "writer's block" I look to graphic design to get that creative energy out. 2010 helped me to create quite the portfolio since I was unemployed for most of it. Hey, everything happens for a reason, right?
I have always been told that people enjoy my drawings. Whether they are made for something special or scratched out on a napkin - friends and family seem to like them. Being somewhat drained in the self-confidence department I had always seen my talent as average... mediocre, nothing special. I just wanted so badly to DO something with my art because I loved creating it so much. I remember going to bed one night last Fall and saying to myself (or anyone listening to my thoughts), please let me wake up knowing what I should be doing. And just like that, it happened. I dreamed of Paul. In this dream I was showing him all of my new artwork. I was SO excited to teach him about digital art since he had never seen it before. He told me how wonderful everything was and how talented I am and that I shouldn't waste it, I should get out there and do something with it. When I woke up from that dream I was sad that I never did get to show him the magic of computer graphics in his lifetime but thrilled that I had gotten my validation.
I decided in September that I would take my chances and open an Etsy shop after the holidays. My shop would offer digital prints, some that I created long ago and lots that were yet to be designed. I worked daily on a variety of illustrations and ideas all with quite a drive. I finally felt like I was on the right track and doing just what I should be (and I felt like I had a special someone in my corner). I am still creating weekly - as many as possible - as quickly as they come to me. I am pretty excited to soon be adding my listings. My shop is in the works, it takes a decent amount of time to get everything in order - it really is a lot of work! I spend hours each day researching, shopping for supplies, writing policies, resizing images etc. I hope it will be worth the effort but no matter what happens I will have such a sense of accomplishment. I already feel a sort of pride for just keeping my focus on this ... a lot of times I get hyped up about something and the drive fades quickly. This time, my eyes haven't left the prize.
I will keep you guys posted as things progress. Wish me luck!
p.s. my fingers and nose are solid ice.
First of all, I have noticed all of your additons to the blog and I wondered if they were your creation. Second, I am in love with your new profile picture.
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My feelings toward my art/talent/lack there of are very similar. I honestly just don't know how I could ever earn a living with it, although I am sure that if I could figure it out, I would be insanely happy. I too, established an ESTY shop, but it lasted a hot minute and I'm lucky if I even remeber how to log into it. I wanted to sell cute little yardsale/estate sale finds. I think I went so far as to gather a box of all things I would sell and it's still in the basement, doing zero. I think that it's great that you have the drive to keep going and I am pretty confident that you'll make it work. I am excited to see it up and running!
Thanks Jess! I have seen some of your artwork (from your blog of course) and I think you have a very great talent. It's hard to be your own biggest fan, but someone recently told me - "if you don't think you are fantastic, why would anyone else??" I hope your creative purpose clicks for you soon - I enjoy your blog posts and would love to see your shop up and running someday! Keep the faith, youngblood!
ReplyDeletei most definitely think this is the right thing for you. and who knows, maybe those greeting cards will sneak in there too (i'm a greeting card pusher)...just cause you are so hilarious and witty...your drawings are so unique yet very you. which means you are unique too!! i'm glad you have found a path...love u.
ReplyDeleteWell thank you, sober mama! I will try to incorporate cards at some point, I would LOVE to do them! Thanks for your support! :o)
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